For the second time, I want to thank everyone for the messages last night. Knowing that there are other people (peers alike) going through the same phase of wondering what’s next in life really comforts me. At least, for the most part, I know that I’m not abnormal - I mean seriously, it’s been MONTHS since I’ve been in this state of questioning whether I’m invested in the right things, and whether my life is going somewhere; if not in the right direction.
I’d like to reflect back the love to everyone who’s going through the same phase. The same phase of idleness, of insignificance, and of inactivity. Sometimes, we get too fixated on the things that make us happy as it is temporary. Sometimes, we get too pressured by the universe because maybe we’re graduating in a few months. Sometimes, we don’t know. And it’s okay.
What’s not okay is that we stay in the same position. What’s not okay is that we don’t allow ourselves to get out of the circle. Throughout the hours that I’ve been thinking (and reading the warm messages that you sent me), I’ve been evaluating what’s really important in my life, to find out what’s next in my life. If videogames are important, then surely more time will be invested to raise my ranks. If my craft is important, then surely I have to start bringing out my camera more often. If academics are important, then obviously I have to read my notes during my free time. Clarity got to me when I woke up this morning and decided that the first thing I’ll do is eat breakfast with my family, then help out with the house chores (because it is a holiday), before I sit down and open the computer.
When the universe gives us the opportunity to slow down, take it. Make the most out of it by reflecting on how far you’ve come, or by reflecting on why you’re still there. Make the most out of it by looking for scars, bruises, places where you are wounded. Patch yourself up. Refresh, Refuel, Recharge yourself. When you’re up and running, get moving!
“You may never know what results come of your actions, but if you do nothing, there will be no results" - Mahatma Gandhi
Note: In times of help, talk to someone. Don’t expect them to say the most appropriate thing to make you feel better instantly, but appreciate them nonetheless because they’ll try. But most of all, appreciate them because listen to you.
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tl;dr: Thank you for all the messages. I love you all. If you’re going through a phase of idleness, inactivity, and insignificance, get out of it. You can do it.